forgotten?

Juz finish reading bunny'ss blog..
emotion filled my mind ~
I simply feel for her..
*hugs* bunny.. if u r reading this ..
juz wanna say """"u r nt forgotten ..""""


simply feel tt all the things she wrote .. is so real ..
filled with lonelyness . lost . helplessness..

makes mi think again ..
gemini minz.. twins came out..
who stood by me? who care for me .. ? who listen to me..? who knows i'm sad ...? who feel for me ? who is in my shoes ??

the questions keep poping out..

trying to find the answer..
to answer each question ..
i may be confident ..
in the past..

Nw .. i can't fill the plp's names in .. the question ..
i can't find the answer?
was it cos.... when u grew up..
we normally Lead different path?
we tend to live our own life?
we tend to neglact plp ?

does it means tt only those who always get to see each others everyday ( well maybe almost everyday , frequenly)
won't be forgotten by each others?
will have more common topic to say?

well those who dun .. will always be left out .. at one corner..
listening to their conversation?

Does it means tt. ...they will care for each other more? know when he or she is sad?
ask about her.. ???

and not those who appear less ?

Imagine .. mi nt going to dance ?
will i be forgetten?

..
.
.
.
.
..Sad to say ...
I think i will ..
maybe wat bunny say is true...
we only talked.. for dance..
and nothing else..


.
.
...
..I thank those who always stood by mi and support mi ..
BO*FS..
those i nv really meet up with ya tt freq
i know i'm not forgotten ..
and especially yongz..
U always know when i'm sad ....
i really appreciate it..
thankz ....

I really hate it when tt's no reply.. from SMS ..
obviously u dun wan to reply ..
if i dun expect a reply.. y would i sms in the first place?
juz a yes / no .. is it difficult?
Or u think tt.. .tt's wasting yr sms on mi ?

think i shall end my post here..
the pessitimistic side is affecting me nw ..
I guess i should only "appreciate" those who "appreciate " me..
I should't be tearing for those who dun ..

Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.


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You are sad because of the loneliness in your life


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DUN TREAT LIKE A INVISIBLE PERSON .........
I dun like this feeling ...
would u like it??
i bet u dun ...

Ordinary Life....

First POSt after funka.. Cos i' bloody Bz with work..
can't breath sia..
Ya.. funka is over le..
Everyone back to NORMAL life...

School -> pia Project , test , Assignment , bla bla bla
DUn over stress ya?
IS juz part of yr education ...

And part time job..
y i suddenly think of part time job?
cos today i walked pass citylink ..
then saw beloved Battalion QIAN HUI .. working as waitress..
she taking Chopstick to customer.. lol

work -> still working .. no mood still ..haiz..

Of cos NRA resume le..
i mean normal class..
Nt those funka training .. whereby.. after work muz RUSH down ..
take off.. go prac..
wow..
tt was really BZ back then ..
but very Chong shi ~
but NW more relaxing .. nv stress about comp ..
but.. again .. it seems like i'm having nothing to work for ...quite aimless..
i dunno if others feel this way .. but i certainly do ...

is juz suddenly tone down ..
mono tone le ..

=P

life still goes on right?
tml muz go hai die (ocean Butterfly)?
lol..
interview leh ..lol..
see hw it goes la..
I start to hate my current job..
i'm UNDERPAID / OVERLOADED ...

sux~~

PLs dun leave mi in Silent ............
I can't stand it..~

Funkamania Semi..

Dancez Battalion didn't make it thru to da final ..
Kinda mixed feeling..
Happy / Disappointed..

Happy:
cos.. all other 4 teams make it thru .. really happy for NRA..

Disappointed :
. We actually lost to a bunch of strippers.. *pUKE*
and NOT other teams.. all in the final .. really Truely Deserved to be inside..
Nt saying tt BAttalion Deserved to be inside...
but .. the strippers dun ..=P

. Feel tt i let so many plp down ..Ann ,YEn .. and battalion

->Ann - We took away 1 of her soul... juz in 1 hr..
Sorry.. can't keep it well for her.. like other group did ...

->Yen - Feel tt indirectly pull her down ...she could hv been in the final ..
Dance till wan faint somemore .. u ar..
U really earned my respect .. thru this comp .. =)
Luv ya..!
pls take care of yrself ..

-> Battalion - Know it wasn't my best performance last night..
lost the strength to dance 1/2 way thru .. and i did qiang pai a bit....
Sux.....
if only can hold on to it.. a bit longer.. won't it be better?

DANCEZ BATTALION: Joan , Qian , Rino , Sarah , sAM ,Yen
Know u all feel disappointed ...
yr face can't be hide..
yr tears can't be hide..
but..
Like lets remember wat our leader yen say ok?
from a Sucky group who cMI ... to a group tt can perform on stage de..
we did fairly well le..
=)
And remember what ann told us..
what she feel and what she thinks.. i think tt TRUELY matters .....!
Maybe is juz our luck la.. lOL
Ok~
Gonna miss
the arguement .... the quarrell... the bad attitude ... and the disagreement..
and of cos.. the crazy / lame / funny thing we say or do ..
the panic ... kanjiong moment...Sucky Clearing steps ...... during prac
jia you everyone in the dance..
Hope dancing with u all again ..After BAttalion Jie shan ..(eventually it will de la.. Arbish.,...)!!!

Maybe next yr funka ? (if got chance for me la) lol....
YEAH!
100000000000000000 cheers for Battalion ~~!!

Sia la.. i write as if .. i'm dying or what sia.. (CHOY!)

Well Pick up my disappointment !! and jia you ..
I still sux in dancing .. kaoz..
Got a lot more to learn ..
Gonna go Support NRA LAter ( Gays , Bread , Fatest , Ar bu neh) later..
LOL! Weee

Jialat..

sia la.. i lost something ..
nt my thing..
is someone elses thing..
Something impt to her..

shit..
I'm in deep shit this time..
hw am i gonna face her?
-_-'''

si ding le..

Hur hur~~
Haizz...

Anyway ..
funka is tml le..

kinda panic nw..
lol
dunno y ..
haiz..
due to some" problem "
my group shift from first group to SECOND last group ..
anyway .. still the same comp ..

muz jiayou~

YOKo YoKo

Haiya!!
**grumble **

Dunno is Suay or super suay la..
always kana this kind of thing ..

but nvm ..
got Yoko yoko~ LOL* like advertisiment*

No Yoko yoko -> WAH ! Pain..can't do ripple sia!!

With Yoko yoko -> wah Chiong all full out ...Ripple ? no Problem ...

Yoko Yoko Wear out -> wah ! i'm a handicapped person ...like a DEADFISH~

Knee also nua nua .. Lol.. Shar will know what's going on ..
wah!!
I think my body falling apart le..
Knee is OLD de..

nw the New de.. Kana .. till Damn innocent ..
Sadded case ...
nv blame tt person ..
juz i SUAY~ -_-''''

Suay ~~ suay to the max..

on more thing i nv add..

Yoko Yoko With Water --> WAH! Hot sia !!!

I feel like a Ah ma~ LOL
Of cos nt as Ah ma as INdi Dolls (Ah Bu neh) Boxers la.. LOL~ *Jking *
i think later they kill mi ~

Oh ya.. Thankz Teochew Deline for help mi "tui" my back ..
then Jo for putting Yoko yoko ( u put too much thought)
all from Indi Dolls de.. muahaha

And xiao mian bao de -- bec bec .. haha .
also Help mi tui ..
and and OF COS!!
SHAR!!
without yr YoKo yoko .. i htink i die there le.. weee

Anyway!!
Die also After this FRI / SAT die ...
lol
I gonna luv YOKO YOKO ... this few days..
treat it like my Baby~ lOL
Carry it around ..weee..

Hey heY! all muz come down Support hUH!!

EVENT: FUNKAMANIA XII 2006

Venue : Ngee Ann City - Civil Plaza
Time : 7pm SHARP
Team : DANCEZ BATTALION ( First group)

Dun come i slap u all!
lol~~
come le muz Show face.. then to indicate u got come..
u come le.. hide hide.. then I thought u nv come hw?
LOL~
anyway ..
I 'm TIred
gonna rest my body .. FLAT on the bed ... BYE!

*cough Cough .. Ahhhhhh ChuuuuOOooo"

Ya.. i'm still suffering from the .. Sickness
Cough ...FLU .. And Sorethroat..

i basicly can't talk ... when i i woke up..
too much "flam" stuck in my throat..
and.. the best thing is..
Someone called mi ..LO!L!
someone from funka .. haha

ahh~ sux..
is so cold too ..
Rain like this few days..
NONE stop ..
the rain is getting "TOO MUCH" le..
can stop le la..
LOL~~

Alright..
need to go get tisscus le..
sneezeing sooN~
AHhhhhh chu!!!

Pic from yesterday ... Yen's Fanatic S.H.E tour ..LOL!!
She''s REALLY!! a very very S.H.E siao Fans lor..
OMG~ worst than i expected ...
nv Seen her siao so much b4.. .
can even follow them to toliet.. muahahah!! OPpsss =X
anyway .. she very happy .. LOL~
excited to the max...
OH~ i helpingh er report..
cos i nt so excited ..LOL~~

Excited Yen ... Sick also so Excited .. LOL
Excited Joan ..
Excited .. Yen , Joan and a nt so excited mi ..LOL!!

Funka pic ..

Actually nv took pic yesterday at NUS during the Funka heats leh .. totally no time to take..
haizz..

so .. limited pic .. and jitao dun have each othes group pic .. sadded

T_T

So sad...
But in bus .. Lucky for those few like ..
JO / Ling / Joyce / Von / Glen / Yuxin who Sit near mi ..
got take pic . .muahah!!
others no Pic ~~ hahahah!!

First pic .. -_- Deline .. LOL


Mi / JO ......(I Luv my Hair ...!! thankz to SAM / RINO !! WEE!! )

Mi & JoyceZZ ... i Still luv my hair.. muahah!
She Luv to act Sweet ...
Mi / Vonny .. my hair is still more dope..LOL
She insist tt her hair is nicer.. ..so we took a pic again ...LOL
Ling / Jo
Battalion RIno / Min .. my hair is nicer.. lOL!
Ling san and mi .. my hair.. obviously is nicer right ? kaozz.. no need say ..weee ~ dopest hair of the day !!


And ya....



Seriously.. can everyone pls take care of yr health ????

Flu , Cough , Fever , Sore troat ..... Headache and even Gastric PAIN?????etc ???

Dun act strong ar??
pain = pain .
No need say u OK de?
cos u say u OK??
but yr FACE say u NOT ok ..
of cos plp will ask ma.. right?? Logical ??

So .. no need pian ...
U onli Cause plp get more worried nia..
Pian = MORE worried ....
Unlike u can behave Normally and yr face is OK face..
then .. worried is gone ar...

I shall REpeat again ..
pls TAKE care of yr Body ..
dun skip Meal .. dun anyhw eat thing... Dun LATE LATE SLEEP
and... of cos drink more water .....

Espcially tt fried ass gal ....
* EH .. i KNOW U GOT see my blog de.. DUN ACT u NV SEE... u FRIED ass ! "

WAH ~~WE MADE IT!!

YES YES YES! ..U r RIGHT!
my group:
DANCE BATTALION ( Minz ,Yen , Sam , Rino , Qianhui , Sarah ,Joan) made it to FUNKAMANIA 2006 Semis!!!

So Does the other 4 Teams :
- JK Scafs "ALL GAYS "(Sk , Sofunt , Dou , Fred , Alex , Joe ,Ken )

- Indi Dolls " Ah Bu Nei" ( Jolene , WQ , Deline , Vanessa , daphane , Peiying , Mae , JJ)

- Outfitters "OutFattest"( Vonny , Allegra , Shar , Mag , Yuxin , Ariel )

-Lil Bratz "Little Bra , Little Bread" ( Ling , Bec , XF , Pang , Joyce , William )

YEAH!!
So tired nw.. but i'm HAPPY!!

Funkamania 2006

13th Jan 2006
Venue : Ngee Ann City
Time : TBC

So NEAR!!

is nw pass 12am .. so is date : 6th Jan 2005

1 MORE DAY TO FUNKAMANIA HEATS!!

Hao Kong bu Ar!!

Hope everything goes well for us tml .. our last prac..
At least ..

=)

today incident was kinda .. *stunning*

this person ar...::
Damn u .. i dun like u la..
Make mi cry.. make us CRIED!! u sux .. hahah ...
and ..............

YA~~
..sha Gua (SILLY GAL!) ... is nt yr fault la..
dun always think tt is yr fault ok ?
I mean U did something for us ..
juz tt recently u more BZ with Study ma!?
Nothing wrong right??
Well ..

Frankly speaking ..
with u around .. the Atmosphere more claim la..
today atmosphere wasn't .. cos ... All PMS??
LOL
and also Training was much Smoothly going with ya.. * dun proud* nw.. ?ok?
lol
Well~~ thought u ALWAYS late.. but..

I Still LUV ya!! *mUACK*

WE still LUV YA!!! *muack MuacK* LOL!!

Jia you for SAT~
We can do it =)

I remember our Moto b4 : Lets DUn Shameful ourselves can le..

lets use this attitude =P

As Fast as it gets..

Just when u thought tt ..
a new beginning a new yr ..awaits u ..
the Unhappiness past... will soon be gone..

Doubt Strike again ..
The uncertainty yet again .. came to me..
I can't find the light ahead ..
Too many thing unknown
too many thing hiden from me..
I dunno the Truth / Lies ..

What i seems on the surface..
might nt always be true ..
The hidden will nt be known to u until it Review itself to ya..
will it ?

I won't really go SEARCH for the truth .....
I believe tt it will come to me ..
Is no one told mi .. then i guess i will 4eever dunno ..the truth ba..

tt's no point .. going for tt .. if the truth dun wan be be Known by u ..
No point going for it..
is KPOness to me

some plp juz seems to know everything?
some plp juz dun ..
I'm the plp who dun ..
always be in the dark ..
last one to know every single thing..
and when u know it..
hw u feel??
SUXY..


i'm juz so OUT~
我的天空永远都是灰的。。。。。。。。永远。。。。。。。。

Bye 2005 .. HellO 2006 ..

Looking back at my 2005..
well ..
so many things has happen in 1 yr..
Affecting me , people around me..
pretty much changed mi too ..

Affecting .. might be happy / sad incident ..
2005 is 2005..
2006 is 2006..

it means new beginging right??
ya..

so .. I dun like bring something from 2005 to 2006 ..
cos .. i think is like bring something from the pass to the present ..
I think all should to ..

Borrow plp thing? --> RETURN pls..
Owe plp thing ? -> RETURN pls..
Got Unhappiness with something / someone -> maybe can say out?? LOL
Got what problems? -> solve it ...

ya right..
Saying about Myself..
trying to solve one TINY little problem ( lol) but hor..
A bit failed la..
but Not say totally Failed..
but is Not very Successful ..
Anyway .. trying to solve tt "TINY" little problem ..
Asap ..
cos.. a bit xin ku la..

NEW begining!!

Xin de kai shi ..!

YEsterday was meant to be a Happy 2006.. at first..
then is like something gone wrong.. then is Like kinda .. NOT a so Happy 2006..

anyway .. Starting off 2006 by NOT having enough sleep ..
6am sleep ..
nw 12 PM wake up..
sia la!
in my mind .. is TIRED..
but i juz can't sleep anymore .. Dunno y..

Sia la.. lucky nv go Clubbing ..
nv go Drink ..
later drink a lot..
Drunk how??
drunk le.. later will PUKE ( nt for mi la.. I dun puke... i means others)
Later will GONG GONG...
later will Head dizzy..wan to have a 4ever wan sleep feeling ??
Then LAter fren worried ??

LUCKY ar.. nv Drink ar.. HENG ar..
ya hor.. this yr countdown ..
is Not As Fun as last yr de..
I still missed last yr de..
at...............
Alex or Bjon house ar?
lol.. either one la.. 4get le.. haha
indian Poker .weeeee..
Aiya.. cannot.. tt one means muz drink .. muahah~~

anyway ar..
Happy 2006 plp~
Maybe u have a VERY FUN day yesterday..
=)


To Battalion:

NEw yr.. New HOPE..
2005 wasn't good for battalion right? Hey comeon!
2006 le.. it WILL BE GOOD FOR US if we Train "EFFECTIVELY"!!
we will be in the heats!
READY!

To SEAH LILING:
Cough till siao yesterday ..pls take care.. U got funka / EXAM!
Drink more liang Cha ..Etc ..

anyway ..
heres' the pic ..

from yesterday ..
b4 everything. mi / yen / ariel .. was happily TAKING pic at Bukit Batok Bus interchange.. kaoz..
really a lot of pics.. bo bian muz Put into one .. kekek
(my current wallpaper)
But i Put the wrong DATE!! damn it !!

Kinda Like this pic ... LOL...
.

Ariel : If u can't get it...GO BUY IT !!(bian tai face + VOICE)!!!
MUAHHAHAH!! -_-'''''

I'm the Hairstyle for Backcomb .. they r my models .. lOL!

Everyone with nice nice style style hair !! thankz to Hairstyles !! and make up artist~
The Artistic : Yen . Xin .Sam.Minz (glen is Not) lOL!
Battalion Unite!!
Ling & Me in MRT
Mi & Shar also in MRT ..=)
Countdown at BOat Quay...
gals + ZX~~ haha
2006 FIRST SUPPER.. tian ji ZhoU!!1 ROX!!
Damn nice.. woo!!
mi / Deline / WQ r over joyed !! lOL

NO TIME!

I got

1. No time to blog and post with pic
2. No time to Work ( cos i got funka Training)
3. No time for Funka training ( cos i got to work ..)
4. No time much more for FUNKA ( onli 10 MORE DAYS!!)
5. No time to Play around
6. No time to chill
7. No time to Meet buddys
8. No time ..............................................to sleep~~

I need sleep..!!

We remember BAd things...ONLY


Normally People will onli remember the bad thing ..that someone done ..
and .. ok .. maybe i won't say "BAD" .. or should i say ... Something tt dun please someone..

then .. that " Unpleasing" thing will STICK in the person Brain..
then ... remember 4ever ..
or on the SPOT.. blame another ..

What he / she 4get is..
the good side of the other person .....
What he / she has done for him / her..
What he / she has Shared with him / her..

Instead ..
The person threw all Anger on one ..

BAd mood ?
Family ? Health ? Frens ? Dance ? Money ? Relationship ?? etc ?
It of cos affect plp sometimes..

doing things out of anger ??
maybe he/she might say ..
"i'm sorry about ...........bla bla bla bla bla "..

But.. Wat's the point ?
When u already say it out..
is like a KNIFE Throwing thowards the other party..
U already say it out..
U already Throw the knife over??

If sorry can cure anything.. then i think everyday ..we can go scold plp ...
and bad attitude plp ..
then next day .. we say sorry..
then YEAH!! nothing happen ..
live happily ever after??

No lor!
Small thing u .. Bad attitude plp
is OK if plp is in good mood ..
but Come oN!
What if Plp nt in Good mood??
They both bad attitude ??
ya .. then Cold war PLS!

Seems like onli u can Bad attitude plp ?
U the QUEEN ..
we r juz slave ..

Anyway ..

Maybe i should't treat u so good ..
Maybe u ain't worth it ...

What a disappointment ..
it hurts mi lot typing this ..
but i can't take it anymore..
i Can't take Anymore Stab .

*more Update at Morbid Soul * ..
Detailed of todays Incident .. *

ChristMAs MOOD! + SHOPPING!!

Wah i juz came back from Rushing all the gift...
Phew ..
so many plp in orchard rd..
but.. proud to say . .when u SHOP alone ( first time)
U go where u wan go .. do wat u wan ..
I finish my Xmas Shopping in 2 hrs ...

Spend a BOMB!!
on all da present.. kaoz ..
so mUCH!
spend like crazy .. but all those thing nt mine ..
well .. 2 things r mine la..
hahaha

bOught da Boxer from topshop
And a BLing Bling "M" from Vanessa ...
weeee..
haha...

Here's ... my Battlefield ~~~~
Look at the Invoice i got .. .KAOZZ..
wonder hw much is Spend ..

Feeling really great.. got holiday Mood le..=)
Hao qi dai tml Potluck session + Chritmas Countdown party =)

In my MInd ..

it can affect u suddenly..
one moment laughing ..
one moment.. nt feeling so good..
nt in the mood to talk .. to laugh ..
hw amusing huh?

something tt seems to be bothering u ..
always flash pass yr mind suddenly when
u r quiet ..
U think .. and it become so Focus in yr mind ..

tt u 4get tt .. U should't be thinking of it..

Nt being appreciated again today ..
again and again ..
this has been happening ..
y ?

i have no idea to tt..
again .. is the simple thing tt .. is the most obvious ..
Sux.. my mood is ruin .. at the end of the day...

Mood change as fast as plp change..
one moment .. u see tt person as this .. the one u like ..
nw.. all u can remember is... the person change till ..................... u r speechless...
What's wrong?
is nt tt .. we haven meet each other for long .. but..
hw come the Suddenly Changes..

I dun seem to know her anymore ..
Her ... Her and her ........

It Troubles u when yr fren ain't happy..
it troubles u More..when u Know nthing on Y they y Unhappy ...
Everything is TROUBLE~

things r getting Complicated~

Running Out of time ...~

CAN WE BE LIKE HER ON STAGE!!?
BAttalion!?
LAUZZ!!

Yeah ..Min min nw is stress / tired..
Really..
i'm!

Is getting so Near nw..
tt i can't breath..
Nt ready..
But we will ..
but hw ready will we get..
i hope is our best .. and our max..

Nt onli 17 days more .. to funka
Ann today juz told us about a Loreal Dance comp .. next thurs
she might send our team .. if we r ready..
and tt's 6 more day ..
Next thurs ..
OMG~

So fast..
i need a rest..
but of cos nt now..
Work hard.. bear with it..
know everyone is stress..

Chill and .. Calm down ..
PhEW~~
Jia you Battalion!

GOing on a Christmas gift shopping with Wang Wing tml ..
gonna buy everything for my "WELL deserve" present fren..
Onli 6 - 8
hahah..
say i'm BIAS?
bleH!
Onli i can judge who deserved my present .. kekek
And of cos.. tt Does nt include BO*YFS secrect Present...
"tt person .. hhauahahaha.. gonna get a "Special Present .. from me ..


*juz give mi a breathing space*~~

WAH true .. damn it!

juz when i was about to sleep
i took this test..
fucking true..

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything. You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life. You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace. You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life. Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you. You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others. You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What Temperment Are You?

We wish u a Merry............

Christmas Gift list is OUT..
haha..
lucky few will get a gift from moi ..
carefully choosen ..

=)

Spend my first $$$
on christmas card today ..
wah~
ex also ..
About $28
crazy ~

LUCKY!
gonna get pay Cheque tml ~~
weeee!!

To Buddies ( Bo*YFS): Those who got me as their secret Gift buyer... PLS buy me thing from my WISH LIST. oru think i will use de.. DUn buy mi Funny thing.. espcially the GUYS!!
I dun wan baseball bat like tt time .. .. Dun give mi "bai Sei ping"
haha..
Lets nt waste each others money ok !?
I promoised i buy de is not sucky thing. ( normally Gals won't buy sucky thing) hahaha!

heheh..
i already know my FIRST chritmas gift is wat le..
=)
and i like it.. cos is i choose de muaahahh!

Recently ..
buy a Dope Bling ..
dun look like the price it should be.. but..
i luv it..
and realsie is a dope brand..
which i dunnoi at first..
is BABY PHAT!!
I like tt shoes.. i wan buy..!!
DOPEST!
i wan this SHOE!!!
someone buy for me @ www.babyphat.com
and deliver to my home!!
=)

Funka .. nothing much to say la..
juz train hard dun let yrself down ..
and ya ..
No regret =P

alright..tml new collegue coming..
wonder if she's a nice person .. hahah
Sleep sleep>

* Diff plp diff view.... Dun one person say diff view of comment from yrs .. then u think tt ..tt person is wrong .. u correct.... dun Comment till they offended u ... ...

In fact they did nt.. they juz say wat the believe in .. u can choose to hear or nt.. ..so Fuck off with tt atttiude"

TIme to move on ..

Taking care / worrying of someone won't last forever huh?
yup tt right..

especially when tt person has changed to become more independent ..
Help from you get less and less..
maybe is time where they dun need yr help / suggestion anymore?

Is juz like the phase .. whereby the young bird.. starting dunno hw to fly..
then later as it grew bigger... and stronger..
it can fly le..
fly high ..

come to think of it..
did tt person ever thank me for all the help?
Am i being appreciated ?

Sad tunes Running..

Was focusing on the song remxing ..
until ..
i listen to jay song ..

track 6 -

歌曲：枫

歌手：周杰伦 专辑：十一月的萧邦

then the sad tune keeps running in my mind nw..
i even set it as my blog song..
dunno y ..
i will fall deep into the sad tune..
reading the lyrics always makes mi so sad..

Suddenly think about the conversation with Joyce / Hanz b4..
Really feel so real about thw whole conversation..

I suddenly felt " UNAPPRECIATED"

by many ..

Joyce / Hanz have diff view..

joyce : we Stick on cos of the word " FRENSHIP"

Hanz: y bother plp who dun appreciated u ?

I wish i can dun bother..
in tt case i won't hv so much worries and trouble right?

cos i 'm bind by the word "frenship"

U bothered so much ..cos u appreciated tt person ..

Imagine someone who u dun really care about..
juz a normal fren ..
if he / she dun appreciate u or is SAD to the max those type..

I admit .. i 'm bias ..
i won't really give a damn ..to them ..
the most is.. i would ask if they r alright..
if the answer i got back is "OK" or they dun wan say ..
i really can't be bothered about them anymore..

if the person i really care / appreciate is in tt situation.. then of cos tt's a different case..
even if they say tt'r ok / dun wan say ..
i would still be worried ... tt juz hw it Works..

I"M BIAS -_-'''

Agree with yongz :

y nGz® 屌! says:
when u r unhappy then u will feel the more need for people to assure u that they love u de
~*MinZ *~-* Not Being Appreciated ........... says:
=(
y nGz® 屌! says:
then when they dont then u will feel more sad
~*MinZ *~-* Not Being Appreciated ........... says:
haiz..
~*MinZ *~-* Not Being Appreciated ........... says:
attendtion ????? u mean ???
y nGz® 屌! says:
but actually is during this period of time u will feel more sensative to this things that u normally dont de
y nGz® 屌! says:
when u unhappy of cos u hope for people to confort u de ma
y nGz® 屌! says:
of cos u will need their attention la
y nGz® 屌! says:
even abit u will feel very good liao
y nGz® 屌! says:
but in the first place why unhappy -.-

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y unhappy in the first place?
dunno ..
can't control mood nw.. especiallywhen ones gets older..

tt's confirm lots of plp around whom feel this way ..

Look around.. there might be someone caring for ya .. but
have ya notice?
if no .. maybe .. u should try doing some simple action .. le..
appreciate yr fren ba..
if nt they will be like me.. living in unsercure ..

21 days more to FUNKA ..
i can say .. if we Continued like this ..
we won't even get into the semi ..
Can't even get a full group to conference..
nt to say.. DANCE..
full group once..
can u believe it?

ARHH!
going crazy ..
*continued mixing song*
go into the music world..



乌云在我们心里刻下一块阴影

我聆听沉寂已久的心情

清晰透明就像美丽的风景

总在回忆里才看的清

KING KONG!!



Wooo!
went ta Watch KING KONG yesterday .. with NRA Peeps .....
thought tt it would be juz a plain action flick..
but!!
it Turns out NOT!

totally ROX!
this movie..
really enjoy it..

LAUGH till siao..
Kan Jiong Till Bite Nails ( Can see from VON)
Chua Sai .... ( got 1 part we really jumped UP~)
Tears a bit ... cos got some part is so HArtwarming ~~ ( KING KONG DUN DIE!! =~~( )

OVERALL is NICE!!
GRaPhic .. i can saw is PRo .. but..
when King kong carry tt Char bo tt time ( did i mention tt she Look damn like Nicole Kidman !???)

anyway .. when king kong carry tt char bo .. tt time ..
the grpahic looks strange..
like fake Char bo sia..
damn funnY~~

OVERALL -> 4.8 Stars / 5 Stars..

ROX!

And those sian sian polp at first.. waTch le.. Become happier and less sian!!
tt's good right??
Nah~ see the effect of the movie le? LOL!

And dun Eat KFC while watching this movie ..
will suffer from indigustion...

The Word :Sorry

I've say mine..
she have say hers..
both of us in the wrong..

Clear things up..
=)

Mood affects .. hw one behave towars each other..
lets watch our mood plp ..
we nv know wat we say or do will hurt the other part Unknowingly ..

We r still Nt moving..
i really dunno hw to train anymore..
No bonds?
maybe ..
hw can bonds be create de?
can it be create juz like tt?
dun think so ..
y ?
kinda helpless..

Dun Know & Dun Bothered! I'm NOTHING to u ~

is ok tt u nv notice .. what happen to me ..
is ok tt u nv bothered to ask what happen to me ....

juz like the pic in my blog skin ..
I'm like the person being Shoot at..juz nw..

when i'm nt happen .. or feeling sad..
it was always u .. who make mi go down deeper..
u nv seems to ever cheer mi up ..
as far as i can remember..

maybe i juz nothing to u ..
whatever happen to me..
it juz means nothing to u huh?

the reply i got back from ya..
when u ask mi something juz nw..
is a pissed tone i got..
tt hurts ...... a lot..
u might nt notice it...
my body reacted to it..
tears juz keep falling down my face.. as i was walking to the bus stop ..
nt tt my knee hurts..... yr word hurts more than tt ..
the thing u say .. the tone u give ..
is enough le..

Maybe u think i'm in the wrong ..
maybe u think tt i'm being attitude to ya ..
mood swing?

i did ..
but what happen to me ?
u dunno ..

dun really intend to tell u ..
cos i dun think u will care ..
so y bothered to tell u ?
stop hurting mi again ..
pls ..

Unfilial Piece of Shit ...

really can't stand those plp who Fucking Unfilial..
those who abandone their parent ..
then make the old one suffer ..
can't stand it.. reallY!!
so angry..

the old granny ..
who picksthe can .. at ngee ann..
so poor thing..
she got a unfilial Son!
A PIECE OFSHIT!...
hand broken..and inbandage .. still muz come out and pick canstill Early MORNING ... 4am !?
Would u wan to see yr mum / grandma do tt?
is juz so heartbreaking to see ..
and tt stupid son !....still dun wan to pay for her medic fee of ONLY $80 !
-_-...

really shit !
well.. he treat his mum like tt..
nexttime.. i believe tt ..
His son/ daughter will treat him like tt...
is juz a inmoral act ..

as least i know i WON"T!
fuck sia..
i dun wan my mum to be like tt ..nor my grandma!
nt tt i would wan my future son / daughter to be filial to me ...
but cos ..is juz the CORRECT / Moral things to do ..
take care of yr parents! for god sake -_-

but won't treat Kids nowadasy ..
muz earn more "SHI FANG QIAN" hahahaha
otherswise next time old le.. is "CHOY" i got Piece of shit Daughter / son ..
i weon't need to pick cans to survived ..

Mi / Ariel .. talked to tt Granny on our way home in 7-11...
really wanted to help her.. so badly
and she's juz staying so close to us lor.. -_-
nex time .. like ariel say..
we go ngee ann take out allthe cans.. b4.. we take bus go from from dance prac.. lol

Hope i dunhave frens tt inmoral !
slap them sia!
i know i'm nt the best daughter in the world..
at least i'm nt the worst .. =)

oh the side notes..
interesting happen in NRA...
really interesting ..
wat we have to do is juz to observe .. and .. ucan smile and laugh ..
=)

tired nw.. In office..
chatted with tt GOH YEN YEN whose laptop is SPOILT ..
haha..
3am ..
*yawn*
she's funny ..LOL!!
Yen... u ....>_<

nah~
stop bloggging le.. i 'm bored!

Is juz the EMOTION take u Over...

Human r juz so EMOTIONAL~
nt tt i would say .. all would be VERY EMOTIONAL ..
but.. as least around me.. tt's LOTs of emotional plp ..
and i really mean to the MAX de EMOTION...............

Is affects plp ..
espcially when u show yr emotion ..
NEGATIVE Emotion i mean ..
Showing it Affects the others mood around u ..
even nt GREATLY ..
but tt's bound to be effect..
Depending on the situation ... who the person is..
if of cos. . the person is in very good terms with ya... U care Deeply for tt person ..
it affects u MORE la..

But who dun have emotion ???
Unless u r DEAD..
FOR nw .. after "long term suffering from saddness illness"
learn to hide..
nt hide all yr emotion..
but.. of cos hide FULL EmotioN
WHY? might ask ..
Y hide?

cos i know if i bad attitude plp , Bad mood plp ... Sad mood plp .. or watever shit..
is gonna affect others..
Now does it make sense?
U know of cos u dun do it..

U know u gonna burn yr hand if u go put yr hand in boiling water???
No right? if u do then u pig ..

If cos tt doesn't means tt i dun bad atittude plp , Etc..
of cos i do .. but the effect is nt EXPLOSIVE as compare to last time..
the most is i dun talk .. Or .... kinda ignore.. or bek che mood talking..
At least i nv scold the poor innocent person ..

I used to walked away from something..then nv pick up HP .. reply sms ..
i thought it would HELP..
but nah ~
it makes plp more worried ..and sad..
cos walking away is a BIG impact ..

Old le.. !
cannot play this kind of thing liao ..
Talk some sense into ya reading this??
dun have ar?
then u go try lor..
go Bad attitude plp . .go mood swing .. go ... Walked away ..
then see hw.. slowly...

=P

Apreciate plp who care for ya ~~
dun make them worried ..

Lecturer Minz ... signing off ... muaahh!!
i luv my smiling Mask ..

System DOWN~

Hasn't been in the best health this few days..
since fri - > Stomache
then .. .monday flu ... then after tt...
start to lost appetite

NOTHING seems "nice to eat" ot me..
i'm acutally hungry leh ..but juz no "appetite to eat"
So i eat for the sake of.. eating -_-'''

So i nv Finish my food since tt day ..
yesterday most pro ..

guess wat i eat?
i bought snadwiches ( 1/2 ham 1/2 Egg mayo )
I ate the Egg mayo (1/4)
feel full le..
but still Forced down the 1/2 of the bread...
so the 1/2 of the ham .. i leave it.. till 11pm then continued eating..
then i also eat 1 pack of kinder ...
then some plaint water + 1 coke ..

YEAH! tt my dinner ...

feel like "berping" all the time.. is like macham my stomach got AIR ..
wah liao..
then feel like gonna puke anytime ..
dance xin ku espcially when i dance.. -_-''
after eat .. Confirm will PUKE out some Sour juice thingfy... i have no idea wat's tt...

I'm SICK!!
they say i kana Stomach flu / Gastirc flu ..
dunno is which one.. but mon i go see doc onli say i got FLU ..
-_-
sian ..
then in the end she ONLI give mi flu medic ..
SHE...
a female doc..
so ..... Stingy Dun Even wan give mi MC tt day ..
*bleh.. if i dun wan MC ... y waste my $ to find u "???

Lots of plp sick nw.. Most is FLU..
dun care is wat flu .. but is FLU lor.. lOL
So those who is sick .. pls drink more water... and rest more..

those who ain't .. Pls take care of yrself.. drink more water also~~

=)

FIGHT against VIRUS ..

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On the side notes ..

more on inner feeling nw.. * Here it goes.. **Serious MOOD on~*

Frens whom u think who might care for u .. might nt be the one who really care for ya?
or r they taking u for granted ???
had a chat with someone recently ..
saying about his Bday .. even the not so close de fren msg him...
but his best fren .. didn't ..

sad right?

I mean .. nt onli him like tt..
i think quite a feel of us encounter ttb4...(icluding me)
if u haven.. then good for ya.. u got really Closed good fren ..
who didn't take u for granted ..

the more u expect .. when u nv get tt expectation .. u will feel super say
if u nv expect.. but it happens .. is a bonus ...u happy ..****

dunno y ...
sometimes i somehw lost trust in the world ..
i stop talking as much as b4..
even i notice it..
jokes? lesser and lesser ..
getting old? not so Crappy ?nt playful ?

nah .. juz tt the problem / saddness is building up .. day by day ..
making my life less fun and carefree................
and ..
is nt really a morbid post la..
but..
somehw nt to a positive side.....
i seriously trying to find the Positive minz again .>
but .. somehw .. partly failed..
it dun stay long ....

PLP do change..
realise the reality ..
pEople whom u can talk to , Share with , laugh with is no longer able to do the same in the past..

he / she no longer able to talk with u with Common topic / crap / Joke with ya ......

he / she no longer able to share the problem with u ... u no longer feel comfortable sharing problem with her ... nor is she willing to hear yr problem ?

etc ...

well .... is juz part of life ~ face it..
I seen it le..
sad also sad b4 le..
but .. things won't change de..
so .. juz move on ba..
of cos u dun go up to tt person and say..

:"HERE u changed le.. i can't talk to u anymore.. u dun care about me anymore right??"

well as least tt me la..
U all reading de i dunno wor ..
i nv Assume everyone is liek tt..
Diff plp diff style of thinking ..

alright .. enough of sad mood thing.. Here 's PIC~
from my new cam .. =)

Everyone luv my cam~
Yen like ... Bec like ... Joyce.. Like ( she too stun le.. so got this face kekeke)
Glen like .... XF .... like also but he thinking on hw to Act dun like (so his face like tt ) .. .Terrance dun dare admit he like ..kekek

Ariel + Fredy also Like my cam =)
Vonny , Ling also like my cam~
Muahahah... After playing with the cam .. mi / ariel go toliet.. then .. we met a zombie outside the toliet and decided to take a pic with it ..
then we decided to join in the ghostly Face so tt she dun feel left out.....

WHAT SIA!?

ANGRY MInz HERE!
I'm GREATLY DISAPPOINTED with that answer
God damn it ..
what kind of fren r u ..?!!!
tt One WORD spoilt my respect ..totally ..
TO THE MAX..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i truely believe .. Yr real FREN will Appear in yr FACE / MIND / HEAD
when things happen ..
NOT in yr 100% best..
and normally .. .is plp u might nt Expect the most to appear for u ..

WAH!
still burning with fire sia..
lucky the person nt me..
if nt.. i confirm SAD to the max..
got this kind of person~!
LAUZ!

talk wat shit about plp nt CARING about u ??
Nt bothering about u ..??
JEALOUS is wat u have..
U SUX!
WAT THE HELL!?
u Bloody KU KU!
U yrself treat plp like DUST...
u expect plp to treat u ... like .... diamond?
WAH LIAO>.
Dun u know .... tt such words call " hw u treat plp is Reflected on hw plp treat u ?"" ( by shimin)
Nabei~~
WAH ! Shou bu liao le..
hao shen qi ar...
tt person is SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kNS...
2 words for ya..

"DIE PLS"

*MINZ COOLING DOWN*

got this from Sher bloggy..
seeing a lot of plp talking aout frens in their blog.. well . .
I also leh ..
nt i cOPY!!
is .. juz having this short of Uncertain feeling nowsadays...

from SHER blog ..:

Friends are part of our life
,everyone got many friends some may brag
i got alot of friend but do they know if their friends are "good friends"? "best friends?" or just "hi/bye" friends?

well.. how i group my friends
..let me explain "Good Friends" are those who you may just met or have lost contact but found them again.
they are those who in a way understand you well with the abilty to strike a conversation,so called stir "coffee buddy" wherby you sit for hours with them talk about anything literally."Best Friends" one step higher then good friends, only difference is that best comes in smaller group and normally one would share secret among each other and only be kept among each other.

The last type of friend "Hi/Bye" friends saddess is tt this type of friends are purely superficial.. with no emotional attachments...

See..??
another groupping of fren . .after CHUA CHONG LIN BLOG..
Hw i group my fren?
is scary..

U might group so one in the best fren list?
but they might group u under Coffee buddy??
is juz tt.. they dun feel hw u feel towards each other..
"act close"?

I seriously dun DARE to put my list here..
I'm afraid of the above ..thing i mention ..
hur ..
acutally can see de..
no need to cos of this list ..
I think i got more coffee buddy / passerby fren la..
compare to .............others...

Do u group yr freN?
hw u group themm?
who do u Group in yr group ??
Y ?

Ask yrself this ..

SPEND SPEND SPEND~~

it has been proven by Ms Lim SHI MIN
tt..
when u r Pissed .. bek che .... or .........SAD~
U go SPEND!!
SPEND MONEY!!
the more u spend .. the happier u R!!
weeee..

i got myself a Digital Cam ..
today ~~~
SUPER fast decision ~~
but i ask a lot of question...
SONY T33 .... .for $430 ~~
muahahahah!!
SONY Clearance sales ..WOOO!!
MY CAMERA ~~ (BLUE DE)


Indecsive forever sux ..
I dun like ..-_-'''
But .. mood is covered well...

TML is MONDAY!!
Sian ..= WORK~~
WAH! got Launch .. i dun like.. i'm
falling sick leh .. today got slight FLU~~
but.. OK la.. still nt cannot make it type.. hehehhe

looking at my bank acc..
i think got 1 hole le.. DIE~

Vonny Bday Celebration 2 + PIC !!Shocking Footage~~!

Muahhaah~`
As i have mention Yen did some "BRAVE" act ..

If i were her?
i won't even come out of the toliet..
Cos is too shameful *clap for yen *

wan know hw xtreme it is ??????
here's the pic ...
*warning: Pls DO NT LOOK TOO CLOSE to the Screen ....."
here it goes ...
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TADA!
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Yen : Wo mei ma ???!!


-_______-Xia Dao wo le !! (scare me...)
But i can't stop laughing ...When i see her in real person ...LOL
to the max le. totally..

***BUT YEN(dunno if she's reading ...hahah)!! U r nt like tt i real life de.. dun worry... We laugh at u yesterday nia ..kekeke ...
u nt ugly de !! *****
So if we Laugh at u too much yesterday ..or laugh at yr pic in the future ... DUN SAD!! LOL***

I still luv u ~~
We still luv u .. even though u look like this b4 .. >_< *********** oh Ya.. continued my reporting yesterday .. cos last night too tired le la.. nv reallyt wrtie proberly.. I finally get myself the perfume i wanted !! -----> e'clat d'arpege by Lanvin ......















smell so GOOD! i like!! woo...
then lucky von von .. got herself a hugo perfume from me.. Cos is juz my pay day ..
Actaully dun intend to give her de..
buy it for myself.. but...
mind suddenly changed ...
Decided to give her la.. hehehe
i'm juz so kind .... =)

Von the belated bday gal + mi ~~ (YEA nice pic again~~ muahhaa)



Maybe i juz read this tt day ... from someone blog..... www.crystalised_apple.blogspot.com


10 ways to be happy

1. Be grateful. This is vital to happiness - be happy with what you've got - not what you want. Appreciate what you have. Case in point - stop obsessing about wanting thinner thighs and be grateful you can walk! (thankz VONnny for the sms .. when i was walking alone in the orchard rd.. really APPRECIATE it... LUv Ya! and Jessica ... For calling ... me.. and and.. WQ for asking mi ... Y my Face black ... Alex also ..=P )

2. Be with positve happy people. Negativity, complaining, and self pity are draining and contagious. Surround yourself with positve energy, that's contagious, too! ( Yenz ... aunty / brave act makes mi laugh till die .. Jessica 's shameful screaming in Cinema ... , Vonny 's Face when she see the video tt or li leng made for her .... =))

3. Limit negative input. In addition to the people you surround yourself with, the media can have a huge impact on your happiness level. Stay well informed, but watching news reports over and over again about things you can do nothing about will drain and depress you. (seeing movie : SAW 2 .. makes mi forget about sad thing.. cos it shock myy Brain out ..lol)

4. Exercise. I know I know - just what you need, one more person telling you to exercise, you know why? It works!! Research shows that exercise raises seratonin levels in the brain, and it DOES make you feel better. So, find something you like to do and move!(walking in orcharding ? if tt consider a .....Excersie ?? walk till damn tired ..LOL... and ya.. during dance normally u 4get u r sad ..... good form of excersie plp ~~!)

5. Do something for someone else. Giving of yourself is one of the best highs you can get. When you're doing something that has no gain for you other than the feeling of giving is wonderful.(Give Vonny's present ... which was nt meant for her at first =P .... go Rush and buy vonny's bday cake ?? LOL ....)

6. Realize you are in control of your life. Stop giving away the power in your life, realize that you are the boss of your life. Take responsibility for your own happiness, don't wait for someone else to make you happy, own your life. ( hMmmmmmm ..... didn't really do tt yesterday .. shameful of myself .*slap*)

7. Spend time outside. hear the birds, smell the earth and take a deep breath to center you. (Ya.. muz i repeat ? walking in orchard rd .. see light .. see plp .. see police .. see....... Cars ? lOL)

8. Take time to do things you love. Are the watercolors you always loved gathering dust in the closet? Do you find time to read all the work related items you have but can't remember the last book you read for fun? Make sure you take time every day to nourish yourself. (Normally nw is juz dance lor.. if got money .. go shop is the best.. Spend money very shiok .. LOL~ no wonder..... i spend money buy the perfume le.. so happy ...heheheh)

9. Smile. Sounds simple, but try this - today when you go out, smile at everyone you see, you'll be surprised what comes back to you.(i smile when I Hit Jessica hard on her arms.. when she scream ... lOL! ... smile when talking pictures ..... smile when I saw yen ... smle when yen Remove her make up ??? etc ... a lot la.. haha when i nv zhi bi )

10. Believe in something bigger than you. Having some spiritual faith is enriching and reassuring. When you believe in a spiritual force in life it helps get you through the challenging times and be grateful for the happy times. Whether you pray to God, Universe, Spirit, the Earth,whatever feels best to you, find something to look to for support and peace. ( NONE ..LOL~ i believe in ... GUan ying bu sha) =X

VoNny Bday Celebration ~~

Unexpected brave + Shameful Act by Yen
to suprised Vonny~
this given us a great laugh ..
but Yen Won .. the "BRAVERY AWARD"
U rox!
but u Look UGLY tt moment ..

watch Mid night movie : SAW 2
Hmmm sotryline nt bad..
Thrill ..also!

Jessica give mi the FRIGHT instead ..LOL
she totally bring out the moive SCARY part.. lOL~
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tt's time when u need to made a choice
to turn left or Right ....??

Sometimes ... one choice may lead to one side unhappiness..
but..
is who whom made the choice to bear the "after effect"
I made my choice.. =)

ARGH!

SOMEONE JUZ BECOMING MORE AND MORE DAO LE!!!!!!!!!!
TA MA DE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GO DIE PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A day to remember in ANG MO KIO

I NV waited for someone for so long b4..
2 hr ...15 min..
FUCK sia....

I'm not PISSED..
juz -_-'''

Went Ang mo kio to do a SHOp display..

the place i damn bu shou ... damn Noob!!
lucky got Kelvin , Cousin LIM' LAK~
called and ask them for direction ....
(this Morning also .. Called and ask for Ways to go Bukit pangjang . .from yen / qian)

***so good to have fren staying around SG******heheheh

but hor..........
didn't know tt the damn shelf so many..
didn't bring enough POP * slap myself*

So ... Ask UNCLE Ping Sun bian ... take from office..
then .. i finish my display with the remaining POP..
then hungry le....

I go eat... while waiting ..
see wallet.. left $6 ...
ONLI $6 ...
BANK is ZERO ...
-_-'''
decided to eat MAC..
Ya.. MAc again ..
cos tt's the place with More seats..
can slack there longer..

I TRIED my best to EAT SLOWLY~~
about 30 min ....
So slow tt i can count hw many times i CHEW~
haha...
then ...

really slow till the max ..
till i feel COLD..
decided to go out le..
sit outside MAc..
nothing to do ..
UNCLE PING sitll haven CALL!
i decided to call him..
and he told mi ..
he STILL IN PS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
*i jitao Fainted*

then some FReak .. ask mi to lend him $2 -_-'''
His timing totally WRONG...
I jitao tell him off kindly: " I also no Money ... tt's y i 'm Sitting here .. doing nothing" =)
BUT i really no Money !!

THen..... sms plp....
then the last sms is .to YEN~
then GONE~~
my hp NO BATT le..
tt's it..
end of my entertainment..
i more helpless nw..
i decided nt to wait anymore..
i go back to the shop.. and Complaint to the owner..
LUCKY she got OLD POP .. With her..
(WAH LIAO! should have ask her earlier ma!!!?)
then ..
by the time i FINISH the shop ..
UNCLE ping came -_-''
end of Ang mo kio story.....

Part 2 of blog ...
WHAT SHOULD I DO !!?
die le la..
is gonna happen again ..
i dun wan put plp aeroplant ..
but..
shit ..
i really dunno hw to do nw..
promised one side le..
but another side .. is as impt leh ...
HOW!?
haiz.....
die le this time.. -_-

totally Different MOOD! Typical Gemni !

Yesterday entry.. So Morbid -_-
so saddening .. Depressing..

then actually today also sian sian de...(morning)
overslept ..
but lucky my company heck de..
boss go for course.. nv come office..
so HECk lor..

Go out office to Display..
Whole day is ..
WAIT ..WAIT WAIT....(Sing: waiting for u .. waiting for u ....)
Wait for SHOP to open !! ( PS shop)

Wait for Shop to Put up the Glass ( Bukit panjang shop)

wait wait wiat.... wait till i sian ...

then .. reach home ..Face the lappy..
started to work on our ZHAO JI WU DI NAN de funka song ...
tt mother fucker ..
LOL..
OH~ today got MOOD sia!
then ..
i completed the Rough song .. 5min !!
Muahahah!Excited !!
then mood good le.. ( ok slap mi pls .. where got mood change so fast de right ??? but really.. i feel good lor!! after seeing the song ok ...One stress DOWN!!)

Weeeee....
headache ... muz go sleep soon...

my mum luv the watch tt mi / my bro buy.. cos mi a BOMB! ..
i'm broKe ...
my Bro ask mi to eat shit ths month ..
well i told ihm : "i basicly eat shit every month ..."
I'm the poorest working person .. u ever seen ~~

Neck hurts ..
my poor arm's skin .. =( Hurts too ~~
but... is ok!! mood good!! hahah

Headache.. But muz wait till 12am -_-
Wish somEONE BDAY ma.. -_- '''''''''' tt ....... 2nd Dec 1986 GAL~
REN!

Breaking down ..

I dun like the changes i see.. i realise..
but i have to take it and face it..
Is different nw..
totally ..

I'm breaking down soon..
i need some support ..
but i get none...

the further i walked in my life..
the least plp around mi understand mi anymore..
I've changed?
or did they changed?

or did they juz give up on me ?

is not true tt Crying can de-stress ..
it makes u onli more .. sad ..

i'm tired ..
i think i should nt bother so much anymore..

keep my mouth Shut.. continued wearing my happy Mask up..
I know i can choose to be happy.. like wat Linda say ?
but i have no reason to be happy for nw ...
hw Depressing..

No one cares anymore ...
I'm gone for good ..


*PS* Sorry .. sad entry .. for both side*
yongz / hanz

DROWN by Mother F*cKer

38 days more to FUNKAMANIA

In quite a HElpless Mood nw..
ARGH!!
tt Song~~!!
Bully mi ~~
T_T

I still can't figure out hw to remove the vocal ..* infact i did .. but the song got distorted *
Sian ~~
use Beat to cover also cnanot.. Cos Quality Diff...
ARGH! * scream ..* * Put hair*

HELP! *wave*
I need HELP Serious HELP!! from some PRO !!
Or u got fren PRO in Music Mixing or can take out vocal from Song.. tell mi ~~
I seriously Hate tt "Mother F*cker* ...
the song rox.. but nt tt WORD!

and .. my desktop is.. FULL of installer.... ~~
for Music mixing .. So luan!!
hahaha...

AGH!!!!
TIRED *

Lacking of time ...

39 days to funkamania ..
totally nt enough prac -_-'''
haiX

STRESS is in my head ..
Opss Ok la.. today dun feel really good ..
So .. short entry here.. and LONG entry over to other blog...
Pai sei~ =P

And one more thing .. :" Sorry ariel .. really dun mean to Bad atittude u juz nw" =)
pai sei~

To my "beloved" haoyong .....LOL!!

Was So BORE nw..
see see Friendster

QIAO~
kekeke..
So cute..
Suddenly ..
I realise.... Ihaven got "KELLY" pan jia li"
Video From the Freesylte comp ...from Skye ~~

-_-''''
muz be wondering y i wan get tt from skye ??
cos ..wo shi wei da de ren ..
Is damn shameful ..
to Video damn Kelly Singing ...tt day..
xiao pang was looking at mi ..like a retard -_-'''

BUT IS OK!!
Qiao like ~~
hahahahahahah!!
Muz remember to get it then can send him ...
BUT!!
Si HAOYONG!
U sux!
U LOUSY FREN~~
Damn Erixin GUY!
U ...!
NV~~!
TELL MI!! WHEN HE IS _______________________

*u get wat i mean*
if He ______________- b4 i can send him tt...
U R DEAD!!
MuahahahahahH!

then No moRe video - Pic for u !of _ _ _
Muahahah!!
nisi ding le !!

And ya... Stop the crap about Qiao~
later he see my Blog then tt it ~~~
nv know Wat tt JIAN!! Hao yong willdo ~~
he's JIAN!!
hahah..

Kinda need CRAZY post to De stresss As i have mention in the Morbid BLOG~
hahaha>> this is the crazy one .. all crap and shit.. think i gonna change Name Le..
this one like sad de.. Which i wont be postiung all those inner Feeling stuff here..
cos...
hahaha i DUN WAN~
=P

And YA!
Si ding ..
Samsung having LAUNCH agaiN!
TA MA DE!
can't they give mi a break in DEC?
LOL....
Wah liao!!
SCREW mi upside down ...
sian !
AH!!
aND .. TT'S ABOUT IT...
for today ....
Hehehe..
Haoyong .. i luv u .. but i luv qiao more.. =) dun jealous ..
knwo hw i know ?
cos ni tou pai wo ~~
kekeke...

hahahah ... U DUN SAY i JIAN or wat..
say wat got 2 blog ....!
Pi La...
GEMINI ma..
got 2 side..
this side is siao siaio /crap crap de..
other is Sad sad / sian sian de ..
so ...
hMmmm..
but a bit strange hor..
nw type happy happy thing.. .then later go other side type sad thing..?
Lol~
think dun Entry together..
later u all WhO know 2 add >>confuse about my mood ..hahahaha!
then Joke with mi when i Feel bek che,., then ..
die lor u all ~ HAaahaha!
BORED! can make mi turn to this ...

really bored ..
today bored..
yesterday ALSO!!
basicly ...I got NO LAPTOP to use..
ok got la.. about 15 mins lor!
cos DOU bring my charger home..wah liao!
then i cannot charger my laptop .. then no batt .. then cannot use..
PC .. is my bro using ..
then I Sometimes ask to use for like 1 hr like tt..
cos he playing game la,...
then if i use too long he bek che ..
then ..die lor..
WAtch TV lor!
somemore.. SUNDAY TV./..So sian ..
I watch Sea geams Highlight -_-'''--> Wah karate got bronze leh~ hahaha .. i know tt gal ..* high for wat ???* hMmm..
then i watch Zhong yi da ge da ...
then ...Later..... watch WU jian dao 2 .....
then later watch le.. watch NEWS ...
then ...
laterr...............
hMmmm anyhw Siwtch channel ..
SIAN!
then later i go sleep ..hahahaAfter watching Wo he jian shi you ge yue hui 3 ...
BORED!

SMS ...also very little... LOL!!..less than 10 also!!
Cos yen yen nv reply mi ..
thenEnd up i bored i go sms plp good night sms ..
waste my sms ...
call Jitao DUN HAVE!! *sad*
wah liao .. i macvham got CUT off from the world le..
HEY plP call mi .. i got free incoming ! hahahah

Wah ..nowadays the ren yuan really bad..
cannot ar.. if this continued..
i will be loner le..
wah kaoz? *thought i'm one?"
LOL!
hMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..
hungry leh..
but .. still bored!!

Just Another Entry

FLip thru yongz bloggy..
See his post...
And he recommanded some Blogger..
Linda Chia (http:www/lindachia.blogspot.com)

Really feel tt her post is s ..TRUE~ =
Letting Go Of Hurt
by: Linda Chia


It is so much easier to have been hurt, and not recover since, then to let the hurt go.

The hurt could have been from anything - a careless remark/action from a loved one, or the lack of loving remark/action from a friend when one is down, or built up, layer by layer, through a series of events over time.

Sometimes, the hurt could have transmuted in the process, morphing into anger, disappointment, resentment, contempt, or disillusion. Or all of them.

And then you give up.
You give up on the friendship.
You give up on the romantic relationship.
You give up being your father's son.

To me, in the context of the human race, it's all about the loving relationship between 2 parties, though it is called by different names.
We call the love for friends "friendship".
We call the love of a significant other "romance".
We call the love for family "kinship".
We call the love for the unfortunate "compassion".

Despite its many names, the grandeur of the love in the relationship automatically pales when hurt creeps in.

Suddenly, your friend doesn't seem to know you so well anymore.
Your lover's actions are filled with suspicion in your eyes.
Your sister can't seem to be counted on as an ally.
The unfortunate doesn't seem as deserving (case in point: NKF).

We flinched, and stepped away, and withdrew part of that love, so it would hurt less. All the while holding the hurt in our hearts.


Take a step back, and really think. Was it really that bad?


Sure, when the hurt happened, the feelings were real. Rightly or wrongly, logically or illogically, reasonably or unreasonably - we feel the hurt, and the sting of the pain was very real.


But I took a close look at myself.

After suffering the same unhappiness for some time, I have come to realise that the only thing that is haunting me, is ME.

I did not let go of the hurt.

Replaying the scene and the unkind words in my head like some sorta twisted masochist, I revisited my pain.
I poured out the injustice to some friends, hoping to find comfort and maybe even pity - only to re-affirm the same awful feelings of disillusion again in my heart.
With hurt in my eyes, I looked at the person who had unknowningly inflicted the pain, hoping she would see it and I would get validation.
Stroking the wound when the world had gone to bed at night, I held it close for company, wallowing in its exquisite pain, and sobbing pitifully over it.

It's all destructive.


The pain had been inflicted once, and the incident could have even been long forgotten by the perpetrator, but it was ME who held onto it. Haunting and hurting myself, over and over.

Of course, it is very very difficult to let go.
Sometimes, we need our feelings validated to help us move forward. Sometimes, even an apology doesn't help, because the pain was so much. When I look at my dad, I know he carries the hurt from my mum still, 15 years on. Still refusing to let go. And hurting himself with it all this time.


But who was it that said "To err is human, to forgive, divine"?

Very cliched, but very true.


Today, I've decided to let my hurt go. I know that when I look at my beloved friend in the eyes again, I will be seeing the wonderful person that I love, not the horrible person who caused me pain.

It will be the love I hold onto this time.

LAZY UPdates!! LOL!

• dunno hw to cheer plp up nw..
• wishing for everyone to be happy secrectly..
• hated "mother fucker"
• hate towel "mao"
• Cold weather sHioK
• Where's qiao ? =(
• Got no time left... onli 44 days !!
• No "mo qi" in group..
• UnhappY!Stress!!
• Proud ? am i ? did i ? WTH?

*BTW .. the pic of the dog is taken on a MRT train ~~ DOG on MRT.. first time i see... DAmn Cute / Guai~~ but his owner is a blind person .. Doggy take care of him ... so guai~~

=)

Feels good today =)

the sky is beautiful in the night..
Nv realise it.. till today ..
the moon , the stars..
totally rox =)

yea!

i'm tired..still
work sux this few days..
I need a break .. I wan take MC .. i wan take off..
I hate samsung launch!!
ArGH!

Nv talk so much since then .....=)

Productive day..

when Jazz technique today ..
FIRST one to reach leh ..
a bit proud ..

i really sux in Jazz Technique..
sux..
gonna improve slowly on this if i wanna be a better dancer..
my stretching sux too.
sux ..

Machi .. xiao pang zhi (wilbert)
really made our day in the class.
he's JUZ so CUTE! lol
make the class so lively ..

After class. ann see the BAttalion~
give us new music + chero ..
nice..
Mi / rino / sarah / qian hui / sam
the 5 of us really Make up a productive training today..
i like ..
we Really TRAINED!

After tt went down to youth park .. to support NRa team ..
and ya..
MUMMY"S GALS woN! the champioN~
nice...

=)

after tt .. go home .. while the others go clubbing..
no $ to club ..
hai~
and .. clubbing really till a bit sian..
hey YOngz.. Where's my Eski bar?

MeOW!! *bite*

was chatitng with Joyce..
she kana bite by cat sia..
ke lian ..
but.. i think is funny..
kana bite by cat.. kekeke

Makes mi think of my neighbour cat ..
Everynight walked pass the playground..
the usual place...
confirm 1 cat will be there..
tt GREY cat...
the one i like most..

the nite is quiet ..
will look into the dark ..
and play with the cat.. sit down beisde it..
kinda dangerous ..
cos normally is about 12am ++++ le
still sit at playground alone ..with onli a CAT
around ..

but .. the feeling is good ..=)
can zhi bi ..
can think ..
can reflect ...
no one is around u ..
the night is so Quiet ..
silent makes mi feel so ............Shu fu ..
anyway .. i nv kkana biten by cat b4..
onli stupid Rabbit -_-'''

cat onli bite my bro ..
kekekek ..
i think i Xian hai him..when we were young ..
Was playing Paper aeroplant..
then my paper.. areoplant .... flew and hit the cat tail ..
i asked my bro to take for me... *cos i scare*
lOL!
then when my bro go take...
MEOW*..... the Cat scratch him ..LOL!!
kekekekek ...

Hmmm...
cat's fun leh..
SHit.. speaking of cat..
my 1000 piece CAT puzzle..
i still haven touch yet..
haizz.. lazy ....

The real me ..crawls out in the night

Back again..

is tt word again ..
ISOLATION~

Sometimes wondering ..
y would i feel like this ..
i dunno ..
it juz came back and pay mi a visit..

Really feel like TrasHing things out..
it has been stuck there for too long ..
but ..
can i say things out ?
who can i say to ?
I guess no one for nw ba ....

Since tt day ......

I'm Just A Kid - Simple Plan


I woke up it was 7
I waited 'till 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I have got a lot of friends
But I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone
When you're spending everyday on you own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that its not fair
Nobody cares
Cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight
And maybe when the night is dead
I'll crawl into my bed
I'll staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time
I had good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes

What the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

Tonight I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'll just a kid tonight

The More u dun wan .. the more it happens..

Went see Mummy's gal on Sunday ..
Alex 's Team , Von' team , Allegra team ....
BooM! ...
suddenly His team POP out.. DIAOZZ!

Wo BU Xiang Kan Dao ni !
BUT~~
Suprisingly ..
dun feel anything..
juz another dancer..
jess when crazy over his group -_-'''
i see a "history" of me..
haha...

come to think of it.. pretty silly ..lol
but.. is quite a sweet memory la.. keke..
ya... getting back ..

panic mi .. saw his team walking..
wat i did ?
HIDE ..
if got tree.. i would hide behidn the Tree..
nw no Tree..
only got Human,....
of cos i hide amoung the human ..
and yea..
hide - > purpose is so tt he won't see me ma..
and yea~ i did it.. he nv see me..
but i se him clearly..
he dance also juz in front of me... Right in my face..

but no regret nw leh..
last time .. when i see him .. if i nv go up and take a pic / talk to him..
tt's some kind of "REGRET" in my heart..
nw i dun even feel it..
Walking pass him ... also nv say hi .. i also won't feel regret..
seriously..
wat will he do if we meet each other??
maybe juz a "hi " .. juz a smile ..
nothing much le..
so ..wat can i get from tt ?
LAst time will feel 'Xin fu"
nw .. Pi la !
xin fu ge pi ...
Anyway ..
I survived thru tt ..

wonder if she survived tt ?
hahahh..
nv ask...
cos we'r nt open to each other ..

I'm already nearly Steping out of the world with him around ..
he's nothing to me nw..

of cos.. joke is still around .. he's still a fren and ex instuctor ..
cannot dao ..
hahaha

Jia Yao Ming = lau Gek how !
He Steal Duck Drumstick !
and got a Enthu Face ..
He scolds mi Crazy ! .....
i scold him back ..
So normal nw..
and i 'm glad ..
no special treatment..

....we still passerby frens .. who says Hi and bye .. ! =)
END of story and Nothing else..

juz 2 plp in 2 different world ..
I stick to my world. . he stick to his ..

So People ~~stop smsing and tell mi u see him in the shOw .. i know ~~~
So many frens in tt show..
Edwin , Joe etc ...LOL

我以把对他的爱放开了。。。。。。

PUKE BLood MoneEy GONE~

TODAY spend so MUCH of $$$$!
so XIn tong !!
I withdraw $300
then nw.. in my pocket..
i left.. $5 ...

Kaozz.. Went Beach Road today for a MAJor Shopping Session with My Funka Group :" Dance BattaLion"

Guess What we buy ALL together !?
Wow~

1. (7) Army Boots
2. (7 )Brown Cargo Pants
3. (2) 3/4 Quarter Cargo
4. (1) Tee Shirt

of cos.. Not all my thing la..

Basicly ... i got buy :Tee shirt , Brown Cargo , Army bootz

And help some plp pay for bootz and cargo ..
then tt's it ...All my mONEY gone in 15 sec
But..of cos getting the money back de
arbo .. SLAP them ar..


be prepared to spend more $$$~
sian ..

QIAN NAN ZHUAN~~~

NO MOOD!

WORK
I got no mood to work ..
shUCk la..
HW?
Holiday > woRk > holiday > work ~~
no FUn at all~~

DANCE
Still can't be committed to working life..
Still wan play sia..
I rather study ..
but..
idun like exam~~
aiYA~~
fan si ren ..
Dance dance dance..
dancing also so fun ~~
talking about dance..
shucK again ..
got nt much time left..
ONLY got 64 DAYS to FUNKAMANIA PRELIM!!

kaozz...
dun think is a lot lor..
muz buck up~

FRENSHIP
Still the same Issue..
hope it can be solve..
hope i can find the solution to untie the knot ..

SLEEP
oK~ is 2.18am
got to go sleep~

心病

small thing ......
U see ..
u know what's going on ..
tt's 心解。。。。
I'm hurt by the fact..
in depth ..

The more i mention it..
tears started to Gathered in my eyes.....
Is sad..really..
The worst is..
it Seems OK le.. Problem solve ..
but deep down .. is NT..
what i can do is juz .." 嘆一口氣”
and turn my attendtion to other thing .. talk to someone..
Doubt i will be happy .. for a long time ..

When did i really truely smile?

Silence ... is Scary

Silence .. alone ..
Mind starts wondering ..
Something bounds to be bothering me..
I know wat is it..
the 2 main thing ....
or should i say 2.5 thing...
Is juz filling up my mind .. when i walked alone..

1. ____
2. ____ & _

For 2 ..
Is still nt Solved yet..
is still hanging there..
is bothering me..
but..
Can't do anything yet..
Nothing is bring up .
so .. Shall nt bring up ba....

for 1.
Juz HOpe tt it stays still in tt position ba..
dun Crack around and sharp pain me..

BTW .. i juz removed my tag board..
cos..
Think tt's no reason for Any ScOlding / Encouragement / Crap ... Bla bla bla..
whatever shit ..
I live in my own world ..

Hope it Dun ..

History will NOT repeat itself ..
i won't let it ..
Even if i die tryign ..
my last chances.. nt gonna let it ruined it..
but i'm .....................Scared..
I already dun feel good today ..
Its like making fun of me ..
Making me.. lost my concentration ..
my focus is all on it ..
Pls..
TO :"THAT THING"
U wanna fool around with me pls.. do it next yr ..
Nw is nt the time ...
Stop pestering me..
GO away !
I can conquer the pain !
But nt the fear ...~
Chances ain't meant to be throw away like tt..

The suffering u gave me..
I will nv forget ..
Dun come to me again ..
I begged u ..